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JL @ Beijing with Cork Teddy Bear from Des Ireland

北京终于开始冷起来了。查看了calendar才发现原来已经进入了小寒。已经开始数九了。也终于开始有了冬天的味道。

辛苦工作已经没有什么好说的。Once someone said that hard-working should be consider a good quality. 大帽子扣上了就很难摘下来。We don’t need others’ judgments to define who we are. But would it be a good feeling to be recognized by the majority?

昨天工作结束之后就去和夏林hang out. 一进门还不等我寒暄，被称作人尽可夫的事儿就蹭到我脚边来起腻。看了blockbuster <I am legend>。夏林所描述的‘非传统’商业大片。Will大叔满脸褶子的就演绎末日的孤独感。只是频频的闪回设置到了中段就已经是鸡肋了。更让我不解的是已经获得金球奖加冕的<Atonement>。前40分钟我很喜欢，到了后面就完全有些不知所云。看完电影要反复琢磨才能想明白原来Keira不是主角，而且真正的主角有严重的妄想症的drama queen. 看到这时，事儿已经在我胸口上睡了无数觉了。

JL @ Ocean Park HK 08

上班正在烦恼的时候接到Des短信一封和电话一枚，打了强心针一样的让我登时兴奋起来。于是呼朋唤友，晚上回家放下bag，喝了杯咖啡就去hang out. 暖暖的客厅里的圣诞树还没有放下。主人就为我倒上了一杯orange vodka on rock. 温暖的灯光，惬意的暖风和更加让人感到暖心的company。等到了Luis, MOS和Mariah一路人马到齐了，吃了Elesa’s的pizza看了极度像是soft porn的，一众人大声嘲笑Kevin Bacon当年泳装的青涩模样和被尖刀捅到时的拙劣演技。

再等到我开怀大笑的时候，I already found us laughing out loud next to the bowling lane. We had an absolute ball. And I realize that Mariah is such a nice person and would definitely like to hang out more with her, though this Dutch lady beat me in the second round after I had an overwhelming winning round first. Well, guess I could only focus for a short while (yeah, like I didn’t know that myself). But the point is, I don’t mind the result, that’s what I like about Des as well, as long as I have some fun, it’s more important than anything else.

开始听Cat Power的新专辑. 还需要反反复复的聆听才能做出评断。只是我知道，第一支track刚刚响起在耳畔，我身上的鸡皮疙瘩就已经昭示我对Cat Power的热爱。短短的38分钟就这样在我的iPod上放呀放。

JL @ Beijing 07

看到朋友有了新的恋情，我实在是为对方感到高兴。I think I did a good job keeping all the comments about the date to myself instead of spitting them right out in the face. That is not pretentious, 尽管我对对方还有着这样或者那样的芥蒂，but well, I hope Des all the best. 很多话自己知道就好。表面的平和维系起来也很是微妙啊。

周六的晚上坐在地铁上一边看形形色色的夜归的人群一边听苏慧伦。突然之间悲伤的感觉就涌上了心头。我知道自己没有任何理由悲伤。也许只是压力已经没有释放的出口而用这种方式满溢了出来。

JL @ IFC near Star Harbor HK 08

贴上来的照片已经是08年拍的了。即使拍照的瞬间不过是12点01分。

香港4日。我就是在不停的走不停的逛。旺角，铜锣湾，尖沙咀，中环；IFC, Landmark, Time Square, Harbor City. 还有那些数不清的大街小巷。

我终于对‘扫货’这两个字有了全新的理解。拿着长长的list将所有的店面转个遍。H&M, ZARA, Lane Crawford, DFS Galleria, Page One, SaSa, Watson’s, The Body Shop, Kiehl’s…… 两个大大的旅行箱都差些没有办法合上。即便如此，依然有很多没有买到。最后在ZARA刷爆信用卡才幡然醒悟。后悔吗？Of course not.

除了这些，海洋公园看海豚表演和南丫岛上步行晒太阳，IFC 下看烟火，夜袭兰桂坊…… 不一而足。

But again, it’s not only for the place, it’s all about the company.

Gucci S/S 2008

Everybody wants to look back the past year and I can’t escape either.

Yes. This can be one of the luckiest years of my life and for sure, it’s the busiest one. But I don’t regret anything. 足迹踏过桂林，阳朔，新加坡，马六甲，吉隆坡，河内，香港，澳门… it’s not about the number. It’s about the company.

Yes, there are people I need to say thank you or 'bastard' to and I haven't got a chance to say it to you in person. But trust me, I know what I want and I know who is real and who is not. When you read this, I am only grateful. Grateful to the ones I love and hate, those are here and away. I won't be who I am right now if it was not for you, all of you. So, I am grateful for the love and pain you've given me.

After thinking over and over, I’ve made that decision and there’s no room left for me to regret. I don’t see where my future will lead me, but I do know it is not happiness，because I have been surrounded by it for a while.

向2007年挥手道别。我们牵手，依然要在08年继续向前。

And my friends, see you in 08. Here or there.